September 2010
50 posts
It was a joke.
Thank God for that.
Some boy text me today basically letting me know he’s interested.
How did I reply?
‘OH FUCK OFF. WHO IS IT THIS TIME?’
I’m still secretly hoping it was one of our friends and not him.
I am an absolute TWAT
I met a really cute guy today.
Whoever said...
that the first year of university is a ‘doss’ lied.
This year is going to be extremely hard…I can feel it already.
Apparently I’m supposed to do around 7.5 hours of reading a week for every module. I have four of them. FOUR.
So while my housemates are going out to get pissed I’m staying in to do some reading because the way I see it is that I’m the one...
I'm at home again tonight.
Because honestly, I have some reading to do.
And who wants to go out partying every night? I’d rather go out once a week or so, when I don’t have to wake up at 7 and have a genuinely good time.
Now it’s time to hit the books…
‘Before I die I want to show my Mum that I really do love her’
That was a blog secret. But the sad thing is that it shouldn’t be a secret.
We should tell our Mum’s that we love them all the time, everyday and whenever we see them.
Woah
Drama in the Calder household.
Maybe I should do a sex in the city and write about this house haha. Would be pretty interesting i think!
Funny how I’m sitting there reading the Holy Qur’an when my flat mates come in to my room pissed and screaming haha
I am...
a right party animal.
I’m sitting in and watching the X Factor while my housemates have all gone out.
Proper loser ayyy.
Ahh well, I’m just going to have to go out tomorrow and buy some going out clothes cause I don’t have ANY :(
I’m really missing home right now.
I can’t wait to get back, I’ve already booked my tickets!
I miss my bed and my entire family.
These emotions are seriously complicated.
Strange times.
I refuse to go out today, I’m wallowing in self pity. Tomorrow I’ll occupy myself.
And…NO MORE CRYING!!
I’m looking forward to tomorrow night. I bet it’s going to be a let down.
I hope not though.
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10 - One confession
1) I wish I was living somewhere else.
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9 - Two smileys that describe your life right now
1) :D
2) :S
I'm a bit confused...
1) My facebook chat isn’t working on Google Chrome…WHY?!?!
2) The whole alcohol thing is just really upsetting me. I had a bit to drink tonight and I’m not sure what to feel. Part of me doesn’t feel right about it, and the other part is thinking ‘hey you’re 18, start having fun’…maybe a shot or two to get me happy and then no more?
I really...
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8 - Three turn ons
1) An open mind.
2) A lovely smile.
3) Pretty eyes.
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7 - Four turn offs
1) People that never smile.
2) Bad teeth.
3) Smoking.
4) Bad personality.
…Though there have been exceptions to the rule.
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6 - Five people who mean alot (in no order what so ever)
1) My Mum
2) Ozlem
3) Seniz
4) Jeyda
5) My Dad // Brother (cause they both need to be in the list)
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5 - Six things you wish you’d never done
1) I stopped caring during my last year of A-levels. I wish I would have tried harder.
2) I would have fought harder for my friendship with my best friend.
3) I would never have cut and died my hair.
4) All the times I was too shy to go up to a stranger and introduce myself I wish had never happened. From now on that’s stopping.
5) Being...
You don’t deserve to be in my life.
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4 - Seven things that cross your mind alot
1) Where/What I’ll be in the future.
2) What my life at university is going to be like.
3) The past and how it affects me now.
4) Cyprus
5) Tea & Coffee
6) The weather (all the time!)
7) The time.
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3 - Eight ways to win your heart
1) Just be yourself
2) Show me that you care, in however way you feel comfortable
3) Smile at me
4) Tell the truth
5) Make me laugh
6) Give me hugs
7) Kiss my forehead
8) Spring my hair
I have...
seriously lost ALL respect for Lady GaGa
WHO THE FUCK WEARS MEAT?!?!?
So bloody disrespectful.
I'm about to be rejected.
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2 - Nine things about yourself
1) I like love peanut butter
2) I’m not a shy person but I go bright red all the time. It stops me from talking to people.
3) I love my family to bits. Definitely a family person.
4) I’m a Turkish Cypriot born in LANDAN…it makes me a G
5) Frank Sinatra is amazing, I listen to him all the time.
6) I miss Cyprus everyday, because of the...
I look and feel like complete shit.
shit
FUCK YOU
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1 - Ten things you want to say to ten different people.
1) Thank you for everything you’ve ever given me and I’ll miss you.
2) You need to relax because I love you and I know exactly how you feel.
3) You are amazing.
4) So much of me hates you because you broke my heart.
5) I just want to hold you.
6) You need to get over yourself and find a personality.
7) Thank you for...
“Distance is not for the fearful, it is for the bold. It’s for those who are...”
– Unknown (via persempretua)
“We are meant for each other, but not meant for each other. Its a contradiction.”
– (via allthingbrightandbeautiful)
I could be wrong, I could be ready.
I had this whole speech thing ready to write. But now I’m here I just don’t know what to say.
I’m physically and emotionally drained. Everything is changing. Everything.
I’m afraid. I’m not ready for any of this. I don’t want this week to pass. I don’t want to cry and I don’t want to leave. I just don’t want. What I want is to go back. But...
When will it happen for me?
